I’m still cool, right?

Something happens when you hit 30. The things that seemed so simple to understand and the things that were so easy to keep up with now seem overwhelming.

I’ve never been one of the cool kids, and I’ve never been one of those people that others come to for tips on fashion or general social etiquette (I think the fact that I just called it social etiquette shows how out of touch I am!). But I was always up to date. I knew what people were talking about, and I was able to at least partake in some of the social interaction that went on. But ever since I turned 30, I find myself treading muddy waters. I think it’s a combination of not being out there, mingling with the younger crowd and age. You feel your age when you act your age.

I used to keep up to date through Vine and Reddit. Twitter was never a thing for me as I just can’t be bothered with seeking out information. Reddit shoves info in your face and then gloats about it, Vine then picks up and makes fun of it.

This is no longer the case. I’ve settled to what I used to like, and I’m comfortable with it. I no longer like to go out of my comfort zone to find new things, but I like to keep to what I know.

I don’t want to be one of those 30-somethings who try to be cool and who end up looking like a wolf in sheep’s clothing. But at the same time, I don’t want to be that 30-something who looks like a librarian and whose idea of a good time is sitting at home, trying out new cat food for her dozen cats (especially as I’m allergic).

I…. Need to fucking get a grip. I need to get out there and I need to start pushing myself. Because if I don’t, I will age even more and I’m not ready for that yet. Because seriously y’all, I’m cool. I’m hip, hop, hippity pop? I got myself Snapchat; that’s how cool I am! (find me there under ordinality) Now I just need to figure out how it works.